A new Outlet

At one of my past reflexology appointments I had, my RMT Kristy had recommended me to start keeping a journal about my feelings, ect.. to help release stress and express how I feel. It is probably something I should have been doing a long time ago..maybe since the beginning of this whole journey. I used to journal way back..its a form of release..its nice to be able to talk..feel that someone is listening but not discouraging you or judging you about what you are saying. There are times where I would probably like to hear some feedback..so feel free..but please try to be possitive..I have enough negativity happening in my life some days. But feedback is sometimes harder to accept due to it might not be what you needed or wanted to hear in the first place.

I believe I am a stronger person due to this whole journey and experience. But sometimes find it hard to show that I am. We have just past the 2 year markin August of trying to have children or a family.We are now almost at 2 1/2 years of trying. I am not sure which is harder to accept..the fact that it has taken this long, Or the fact that we were so close and it was taken away from us so fast. I am not really sure anyone can fully understand what we are going through unless they have gone through this situation themselves. Its not just that we miscarried, but the simple fact that we have gone through so much before getting to that point.

The Spa has helped with me becoming a more relaxed person, Doug and my mom notice. I do not see it exactly as they do..I feel more relaxed somedays. The thoughts are always in the back of your mind..whether you want them to be there or not. I try to have loads of faith and patience!